FlyingHigh!

2007-07-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

My Last Post

"I am no one special. Just a common girl with common thoughts. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul and for me that has always been enough."

2007-07-28T10:25:00.000+08:00

Good Morning Star-shine

The world says hello

(:

2007-07-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes you've got to go home to find yourself."
"I think music has got to be an honest reflection of where your head's at."

it's no wonder they've been a hit since 1986 heh.

Ah, I've been hooked on the Goo Goo Dolls. "Dizzy Up the Girl" was an addiction enough two years back, and now I'm all over them again, hahaha. the lyrics people, it's in their lyrics. LING and cash you guys got to agree with me.

And I want to get free
Talk to me I can feel you fallin'
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

"Strange how something that you write from the perspective of another character actually winds up applying to your life."
- John Rzeznik, on the band's song-writing

You wait
Wanting this world to let you in
And you stand there
A frozen light in dark and empty streets

And you smile
Hiding behind a God-given face
And I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore is all I need to see

Side- note, here's my favourite ultimatum (hahahaha terence hates this word) poster/advert boy.

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without

Okay I'm off to bed yana's going to kill me now that it's past 1.

2007-07-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

"I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand."

2007-07-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

hello everyone!

okay, it's been ages since I blogged. Hello blog and superold891jhsbdjksbfksjnfb song. that's me with my ice cream. (what's new)

ermmmmmmmmmmm I finally got to meet up with yana that day (before work) and yeah it was good time spent lah with my always-need-to-do-something-with-her-hair budddddy. I love you yana banana. Just remember to take it easy okay (about what you shared about the past about the hair about the imminent stress) I'm going to be here for the next 3 yrs (& definitely counting) to lend you my shoulder okay. because you can only reach it, no lah joking. that's me trying to be funny.
no pics of yana because she kept complaining about her hair in those pics so, okay no pics no comments.

and i've been spending a lot of time working, but yay got to meet up with the eight last monday because it was yussssy's birthday bash at fish&co. the glasshouse is very VERY birthday friendly, 5 stars out of 5 for TOP PLACES TO CELEBRATE YOUR FRIENDS' BIRTHDAY PARTIES

here's one picture of us and the erm, cold shelf (i refused to call it the fridge)

and here's one of me talking and being dramatic.
i love them, so fun and so long besties.
okay, on wed I went to sentosa WHHHHOOOOOOPIE dee! best companion/tanning instructor. just one pic from that day don't be greedy
ah the sun. cafe del mar's okay lah. good place to just grow mould, i mean, to relax and let loose. luge was a bit boring. we didn't use up our free ride, sorry uh dee! it's not even considered go-karting is it?

alright that's about it for last week and before.
i'm still the ice cream parlour girl m'hmm yes yes.
melissa's back with norman for a week+, so it's tourist cheating time!!!

my little miss sunshines are not online.
my best friend starts school this week
JUST DO YOUR THING, YOU'LL BE GREAT

(:

and i hope to be able to meet up with people come next week. ah!

2007-06-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

you know how sometimes you think back and you realise that despite how difficult something was, you actually enjoyed yourself amidst the cares?

michelle neo just made me realise that the people I met in NJ are people I'll never want to forget. Yes, they seemed different from the people I was used to, but we laughed together, learnt together, slacked together, failed together, passed together, ate together and grew up a lot (together) There are things about many of them that I may not agree with but then again, Melanie Ho, no one's perfect.

For the people who made my 2005 and 2006, I'm keeping all of you.
For those who will be seeing my face for the next 4 years, oh you lucky bunch.

hehehe

for the record,
I've flooded one of NJ's most well-used toilets
Became a well-known fan of Darth and (i'm lazy already.)
Ate a lot of yong-tau-fu, prata, and hokkien mee

to you guys always,
Thank You, and fighting! heh

(:

2007-06-16T13:09:00.000+08:00

My Daddy's Back

Youth camp was good, learnt a lot, and had a lot of good ol' fun. I treasure my time with these people. We played this Wii game thing, it's like, you can play tennis (or baseball or bowling or boxing or golf) in a group of four people max, virtually! haha, really fun.

So anyways, last Sunday my 'surprise' came. Dunkin'!

so that's my thigh and left hand with the much coveted box of six. ooooo exciting.me and happy strawberryhappy strawberry after my first bite off her top.

Haha, as you can see I was happy. Haha, of course I was. Thank you Dee!

So UK has 'Britain's Got Talent'. Here you see the household-name Mr Cowell doing what he does best. But this little girl is amazing. Just watch it you guys.

and I love my bestfriend

now i think she's gonna kill me.

2007-06-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

hello people. It's been ages since I last blogged. I think I haven't been using enough of my brains. So, when school starts, you new-school-friends people can laugh at my horrible intellect (or lack of it), so okay go! I will still have fun. I really want to enjoy school and erm, lunches. Lunch is something I'm looking forward to, meeting new people comes next.

I'm so lazy to make new friends you know. hahahhaha. But it'll come naturally. The thought of it just makes me lazy, that's all. You know what I mean right monkies.

Ling may be staying at her school's hostel. Which is at some ulu part of singapore. Like where desmond lives (uh oh, ling, since desmond is some dota expert who won some competition for in singapore and whose face is on a cine poster, will he be able to track this blog because i'm talking about him? oh well), far far away. AHHHHHH. bugger. Let's sever all ties now. It makes the break-up much easier to bear. Just...go. Go my nasi goreng padrik thai. Leave me. Leave me here and go.

okay. that aside, Yipeedoo!! I'll finally get to play netball again after 893217498275 years and 3 days. Come saturday people! See you all. Fun reunion. Let's see if I've lost my touch. hahaha confirm lost touch already.

See, talking comes naturally to me, I came here with no intention or idea to blog, but wala! I've typed quite a lot already. I feel like posting a picture, but I haven't been seeing pictures that capture my fancy. I've not taken anything random in a long long time. most of them are printed copies, not digital anyway. Everyone seems to be taking the same kind of pictures, I think it takes a lot of something to capture a rare still. clearly, I dont have it. haha!

I seem to be squeezing people into my weeks. I hope no one feels offended or anything, like my mum, who refused to meet me for lunch because she said I'm just squeezing her in (ouch :( ) I hope you all can tell that I'm trying. come to think of it, when school starts, it's gonna be harder, isn't it?

I still love how I've been able to keep up with the movies (old and new) I love the cinema. Thank you dee, for being such a keen and erm, similar movie baff.

During the As period (Thank God I'm speaking on hindsight), Siti brought up 'How I wish I could just hang out at some coffee place, doing nothing for half the day man'. Haha, come to think of it, even though we aren't having the As now, or some other exam, we still can't afford to do nothing all the time. I like doing nothing sometimes. I like just staying in bed. I like just taking a bus ride with no particular aim. Haha, come august, I won't have the chance to do nothing in a long long while wooo.

I hope I pass driving too. It would save mummy a lot of money.

Oh, and I'll be moving next april. Somewhere beside a lot of good(bad) food. Bye Bye Hua Guan!

okay, I think I've typed a lot. I came online to change my driving dates, AND I haven't done that. ahhahaha!

2007-05-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

ehem ehem.

I've never felt so lonely like this before.
Boohoooo.
My friends refuse to be by my side. I don't know why. If only...if only.
Hahahahaha.

Okay this is so cool, writing for somebody.
Hello Melanie's friends ! Yeah you, hellooooo.
Anyway, the reason why i'm here is because;

One, i'm very free.
Two, the owner of this blog is lazy.
Three, Jamie Teo is definitely not pretty ! (i think weiling more pretty uh-i really mean what i say ok!)

& i hope you guys are doing well. You know like receiving flowers at your doorstep, or maybe you randomly feel like cutting your hair.

Oh ya i didnt hack this account hor ! Well, Melanie wants to see what i've got up my sleeves and so she is staying out of this entry. I hope you readers will support me in this matter, because i got no sleeves right now(if you can imagine, i'm shirtless). very hot uh.

Okay i know, people like Siti sometimes don't understand what Melanie is trying to say in some of her posts. If you don't understand, then your pasal la.

I think the song in this blog need to change, agree ?? i want to change it, but i don't quite understand how. Then how ?

"Flavourful, yet refine

You remind me of the divine."

Okay it's late already, i'ma pass this blog over to it's rightful owner.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2007-05-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

You should know me better by now. What makes me laugh,chuckle, smile. Makes my heart skip a beat. Makes me nervous, scared, afraid. Makes me wonder. Makes me cry.

"Someone who fights for you, really, and not give up. Someone who makes you feel important over the slightest thing, just because."

Are you happy guys? The kind of happy where you lie in bed, and know everything is in its place. The kind of happy where you may have had the worst day in your entire life (as yet) but you smile because you know you have all you already need to keep.

I realise now that this is only easy when I see you, and know that it feels right.

Other times, it feels delusional.

2007-05-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

Elliot Yamin must be one hell of a hopeless romantic. Haha. Come on. No one waits forever.

Everyone runs out of time, isn't it. Because it has the habit of slipping away.

You know, when I see happy families at TDS, I grow up, and realise I'm far from acting like a grown up. Do you guys always know what you're doing, why you're doing it, what you want, and if you'll fight for it?

I am but human you know. People think, people ponder about their future. Even the most laid-back person wonders at least of his minute-after.

Bone and flesh, like you.

There must be someone who waits. Someone insanely human enough to wait.

2007-05-22T01:04:00.001+08:00

"Two years later you're still on my mind."

2007-05-17T12:04:00.000+08:00

Wednesday was good fun.

Nice people, nice place, nice weather, nice foooood. I just wish they didn't curse so much, haha. My throat felt so dry. Throughout the whole ecp session. And Amanda cheeeken nugget and I rode the double-bike thing. Ha Ha. The bike's so long, I had such a hard time manoeuvring it around Macs, hahaha. Now I know how bendy bus uncles feel.

Erm, I haven't got proper pics, but here's one dee took. Totally random. Simpang Bedok manxyz, talk about THE GOOD OL' DAYSSS.

Haha, Shaun was the driver for the day. Okay, maybe when other people (erhem) get their license, shuan can be relieved. But he said that he enjoyed the ride there and back, so. heh heh. I met Amanda's sim friends too, jocelyn, sherry, steph. Interesting people. Jocelyn and Steph were in the car. So easy to click with. Ah-Mi-Tou-Fou people, hahaha. Oh we saw their fellow ah-mi-tou-fou people at ecp too. i think.

I really don't get wakeboard-talk. But it's funny, how they all get so excited. I was too bummed anyway, so listening was fun.

Okay, you know you scare me sometimes. And then I really spend time reflecting, checking where I went wrong. Haha, like those kids who have to wear cone hats at the corner of the class when they do something wrong. REFLECT.

Okay. I hope I pass my driving test people. Proclamation of the day.

#2 proclamation of the day will be, I WISH I DIDN'T SAY YES WHEN MAY ANNE ASKED ME TO WORK AT 2. hahaha. as it is, I've taken the super-strong flu tablet for fear of sneezing-non-stop-at-work episode 2. hehe. Rajjy is really random. He asked if I have a good bag for campus. He wants me to survey around, and tell him when I find a suitable one.

school, school, school.

2007-05-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this

- Lifehouse 'Somewhere in Between'

2007-05-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

okay, so mission-friday accomplished! hahaha, yay. happy burstday happy burstday. It has been a bizeeeee week. Oh the world is full of nice people you know, like the cup can be half-full, not half-empty, like carrot in a cup of water can be more nutritious, not disgusting. heh heh

hmmmmm let's see. I should be having a good dose of monkey-business, the O.C, ecp, more hidden cafe/restaurant hunting and of course, driving, and ice-scream scooping/churning/sealing/eating

er, I think it's time I played with my toy camera. film's only less than half used.

okay, it's time to make my appearance at work. 3 hours of work is good. heh heh. I already miss the smell of ice cream people!

and SITI FIZA PIZA, you should really come out and meet us soon, LIKE TOTALEH. you better. stop practising already lah, stage 9 already lah!

2007-05-08T23:21:00.000+08:00

IM HAPPY FOR YOU

:D

VERY

2007-05-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

2007-05-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

They paved paradise, and put up a parking lot.

oooh bop bop bop

2007-04-27T21:41:00.000+08:00

I am not a (copy) cat.

I may not be the most creative, innovative, unique or whatever shit, but I am not a copy-cat. I don't do this crap. If you (my monkey readers) know me well enough, you would know that I'm not as dense as to actually do something like that- so explicitly, so tactlessly. hahaha. like that low EQ IQ you know.

But I am stupid. Freaking Stupid to believe people. Yeap. Man, I hate your guts.

2007-04-23T01:11:00.000+08:00

okay here you go hot-hot-hiddy-doo.com

hehehe, your favourite girl, ubin no. one jumper.

C.I.O.Y
(Check It Out, Yo)

2007-04-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

okay, so blogger decided to be a pain in the ass, so the only f0tO I cAn UpLoAdXyZ iS diS

today at work man drew patrick (and then a caucasian came in with a shirt with patrick's head on it), spongebob, gary and squid-wert free hand. that guy is an awesome cartoonist I tell you. but he has this thing for sexy ice cream cones and er, pouty lips.

more ice cream tomorrow people!

PU 2U peace out.

I AM BURSTINGBLISTERS FULL MANXYZ. damn full.

2007-04-09T01:11:00.000+08:00

Easter Sunday! My crazies. Happy Happy with their chocs. Hehe, Pei Ru looking cute today in that hair-do. Eh, I used to tie my hair that way in pee school, and I even said 'School Attention!' like that okay! Oh spongebob choc for the boys by the way. Hehehe, how typical of me.
Ben with his dunno what fake metal thing thing. Today he did a william hung. This boy here can carry off so many accents, like his brother Josh. From country to indian. Haha, cracks me up everytime mannnnnnn.
hehehe.
Hope everyone had a good Easter. Thank God for Easter (: The very reason why we believe.

You know the thing about History, if it's recorded with proof and evidence, you can't deny it. No matter how much you try to convince yourself it didn't happen, fact is, it already did. I don't understand how people can try to pull something that actually did happen out of the past.Like the Holocaust happened no matter how hard some Germans tried to convince their descendents otherwise.The Japanese brutal invasion happened regardless of altered textbooks and propaganda.So what do you do? Do you just believe something didn't happen despite hard evidence just because they say so? You can't change the past, can you? It really gets you no where lah, eventually. Now, why would you want that?

oh and FYI! I had a whole night of bike riding last friday. Muahahha, looks like I'm still in good shape. hahahaha. RIGHT! more waffles and ice cream and chips will make it just perfect

toodles!

2007-04-03T09:45:00.000+08:00

There's still so much of the world that I've never seen, never lived, never experienced. I would love to, wouldn't you? No, I'm grateful for what I have. I just think we should all see more, see what's out there, what's beyond what we already know and are familiar with. It's our world afterall, right? (:

"Life is like a game of cards. You play on even though you know you're gonna lose."

2007-04-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

It's like a choice that draws the thick thick line between yes or no, between togetherness or distance, between then and now. It's sacrificial, painful, but significant. Like a moment to remember, a picture captured. Like saying 'I will be with you through this, even this.' Forgiveness is a sign of maturity, of sincerity, of true love and a true relationship.

thank you, for forgivness.

2007-03-31T19:11:00.000+08:00

2007-03-28T01:39:00.000+08:00

I'm a day late (since it's today and not yesterday anymore) but.. Happy 25th Papa & Mummy! (:

I wanted to eat surprising! coconut ice cream but it's rock-hard (so hard it could kill someone, I promise) so....I gave up. And what was only supposed to be just mummy's butter cake, is now marmalade pantry cupcake #2, peanut butter! *grins. dang dang is definitely very happy and round. Tomorrow (I mean, today) I shall have chocolate, and the next day, the mysterious flavour. Muahahaha. I shared lemon with mummy yesterday (I mean, the day before yesterday) She said is was too sweet. But I liked it! It was like having lemon sherbet on cupcake without the chillyness. Too bad, rainbow cupcake got eaten up by monster marilyn before I got home. Maybe that was coconut. I dunno?

Maybe tomorrow I will run to bbdc.....NOT.
heh heh.

Mummy flies off tomorrow. Papa will have good ol' company then :) Healthier food too, I BET. hahahaha. Mummy's a part-time health freak. You guys should know, just by the pills I down everyday. But she eats a lot of chips, which makes her a good mummy too. hahahahha.

Boss: "So who's going to be in charge of the house when she's there?"
Me: "Me lah!"
Terence (from afar): "oh no!..chaos."

excuse me, excuse me!

2007-03-27T13:07:00.000+08:00

2007-03-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

'think we crash just to feel something.'

I think I shouldn't set days aside just to spend time at home because things just go wrong. I guess some things should just be left unsaid. Apart from that, I've come to terms with how no one can love three people equally. I've always been the one who's out and about, let it stay like that; how I'm more out of your way than in it. Guess over the years it's grown on me.

And with regards to your little baby girl, it's not like I don't try to help out. I do. But screw recognition. I don't need it from you anymore. Have you forgotten that I'm your girl too? Maybe it's my fault that I can't share much. I can't, you'll just...flip.

Not angry, just pretty numb.

That aside, I wonder how Melissa Ho is doing. Partying, last I heard. Haha, that monkie.

The weeks past so quickly don't you think? But somehow, I'm happy like that. Work and play. Dee and friends. Church and Marilyn.

Rajjy, please be okay.
You know people, there are seven faces of sorrow. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. anyways, I hope to do something for him on his birthday :) it's never easy to lose someone you love. but I'm sure he loves you very much and wants you to happy. just like po po does, for mummy.

You were always there when I needed you. I hope to be here for you now.

Ice cream works for me, does it for you too? hehe

2007-03-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

okayyyyyyy.

scratch the ONE YEAR WITHOUT ICE CREAM post. abort plan! abort plan!

hahaha, no wonder you said it's not worth it. not worth one year of painful painful sacrifice. hahaha..

you know, home is when you're here.

(:

2007-03-18T18:54:00.000+08:00

okay, hello 18 March 2007

no ice cream till 19 March 2008

by the looks of it, I'm still doing well.

hey, it's been more than 12 hours since.

eh...melanie fighting! haha.

2007-03-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

Anyone who says people can't put him down is a freaking liar.
What, like you have every bit of individuality in you able to hold you up all the time?
Everyone has an avenue. Some eat, some drink, some do drugs, some cut themselves. Morbid mutilation, yada yada.

Mine just happens to be people. Or so I just realised. Everyone has at least someone who's his avenue.
It's just a matter of whether he's yours, when you're his.

2007-03-16T02:44:00.000+08:00

and so I just completed my flash-back episode of Prison. The dvd called the epi 'Brother's Keeper'. You know like how every 'Friends' episode has a name also known as 'the one where...chandler gets fatter' (for example la, haha)

so I learnt from Prison today that the crane represents familial obligation. 'I figured it's your way of telling me that you're checking in on me.' You know, you're right beside me sleepinggggg (thank God you are, at this hour). But I can't help but say that I want to look out for you as long as I can, and at times I'm gonna get on your nerves for doing so. but you gotta know that I love you. I love you a lot. But you know, I feel like a hypocrite telling you not to this and that, to do this and that, when I'm breaking all the ground rules, breaking all their hearts.

sigh. scratch that. anyways I know I know, I am lagging behind. haha, so I didn't even bother to catch the debut of season 2 because yours truly is still at disc 3 of 4, courtesy of siti (bang bang)

I am hungry. see this is what happens when I stay up. but then again, I'm almost always hungry, with the exception of post-feasting.

I had my first driving lesson today! fun. round and round and round, clock wise, anti-clockwise, inner lane, outer lane, round and round, but fun. hahaha. I even asked mr instructor (oh I just realised I didn't ask for his name! wah lau) 'you not giddy ah?' hehehe, but i'm hitting the roads come wednesday! hope I don't do anything stupid, like mistake the accelerator for the brake pedal (again)

haha this post must sound like a mad emotional helter skelter.

I carry your heart.

had this random thought today: you know the term 'vanilla sky'? is that a metaphor for things appearing to be the way they are the exact opposite of? since vanilla beans, the stuff that give you the very flavour, are afterall, really black.

2007-03-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

grateful.

2007-03-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

I seem to be doing so many accidental little little things that annoy you, that it annoys me.

Just to let you know dee, this girl over here will be learning. see that 'L' plate up there? ya, imagine me wearing it. like a car. oh like that car. IMAGINE IT, IMAGINE IT!

oh well. I just hope I'm still loved all the same despite my imperfections.

&& I HAVE A HUGE CRAVING FOR KOREAN FOOD (again)

grrrrrr.

making cones means having to clear up evidence of dead cones killed by, er, me. hahahaha, I think I ate 5 today.

Cedele sandwiches are nice. At least the one Melissa shared with me today. They actually put jam (disgused as cranberry sauce. sneaky, sneaky!) with chicken and it actually worked. A round of applause for Cedele everybodeh.

Oh and ling, Pellvyn (that's how you spell his name) wears a shirt because he is part of management. Not because he is welcoming the millionth customer coming in possibly anytime this week. (okay fine, so I said it) hahahaha, I still think we should have that millionth customer thing. Imagine. Imagine.

okay stop imagining.

now imagine me, staring at the comp for the past 30 minutes. Wait, almost 3 quarters of an hour (hahaha, dee this is me trying to sound like you, when talking about US cents) Yep, I was staring, not knowing what to say. But yet trying to say a lot and not sound like a whiny (quote and unquote) Melanie Ho.

Haha, and I (just) almost told you guys that I feel like peeing but deleted that because it was a bit unnecessary.

Okay, so I should really go because I have to visit the rest room.

2007-03-07T10:32:00.000+08:00

Chelsea has made friends, or so I just realised. Unlike us she doesn't have to use a handphone to text messages or to call or to send pictures of herself over. She barks, and her friends bark back. Last night when I entered the kitchen I found her all curled up, and when I opened the fridge door, I expected her to stir a little but she didn't. Still as a log. Haha, because she's so old, I panic. Droopy eyes- just sleepy eyes.

I really should get going for my daily scoop. Can't stop sneezing. I hope I don't sneeze into any ice cream today. Haha. 'Biggest mistake at the work place' number 83761892468932489. I already committed the 'biggest mistake at the work place' numbers 98712438971489 and 8734874892 and 192873892749834.

Hahaha, you think mental patients are really happy in their own little world (of exciting moments? ok melanie stop.) Come to think of it, I think some are la. But then again, there are the bitter bitter cynical ones who go on and on about war and dictorship and honour and glory and all that jazz (crap). It's funny when you hear them rant and rave about things that technically don't seem to matter anymore, but then that cracking-up turns to pity, sympathy. You know what I mean. It's always different when it's got to do with someone you love. You don't laugh.

Good morning world. How about some rain for today? Rain is good. We could do with some sympathetic background.

2007-02-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

You're the aaaaapppppppplllleeeee of... my...eye!

burp.

2007-02-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

Going to have my 'Daily Scoop' in a while. Hehe, work lah. Filling in for Jerren because that guy is sick (again) Haha, kinda funny (awkward-funny) when I had to work with him previously, but funnier when I had to work with him AND ling because I knew she'd be watching and then probably laughing (hong kong style) inside.

Haha, it was a horrible night. All thanks to me and my thoughts and my insecurities. For now, it's no more thinking, because thinking gets us no where. No more sappy novels. no more no more no more no more no more (5 times)

Hello home, you seem quieter than before. I foresee myself staying out more than ever because having dinner alone is like having a bag of Ruffles gone bad. But then again, we're never black and white. Some days I'm a Melanie who wants to be alone. On other days a Melanie who needs the girls. Or a Melanie who needs pizza or ice cream or just a Melanie who wants to bum around coffee bean with you without coffee or with you anywhere. Yesterday I was a sickening Melanie who couldn't stop moping around and whining. Haha, I don't like that Melanie. Boo that Melanie, boo. So anyway I bumped my head against the bed railing while talking to kopet so, (ladies and gentlemen) I got my just desert.

Alright I should get some rest now. more ice cream to be made today. andddd I think I'm getting better. hahaha. No more massacre of cones or of kookie monster or of bowls (i hope)

&& Yana if you're reading this, we need to book the practice for next week together! Tonight?

2007-02-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

dinner was goooooooood. aunty beatrice and her daughter aunty bertha came after our steamboat with uncle samuel's family. Mabel's taking her basic theory march1, a day before me. hehe. she says it's easier to pass driving tests at bt batok driving centre as compared to her school at ubi because of the roads. haha, i say, yayyyyyy. mabel's into her second year at NTU, smart girl and really really nice. the other time our family met, we were talking non-stop about korean dramas.

aunty beatrice is so cute. she's so bubbly for someone her age, and i tell you, she really sets the energy going anywhere she goes. aunty bertha is so smart and comical. both of them are so cartoon. i like cartoon. hehe. she asked me how much the daily scoop pays me, and offered to pay me more if i work as her receptionist at her practice in gleneagles. hahaha, she's so cute la aiyo. she was talking about the SDU and how they use 'recycled man' (read: man who have been divorced/ dumped) and she was being so drama about it hahahaha, her experiences I mean. I say, i really cannot be bothered about the SDU , but she's so interesting to listen to/watch. when I opened the gate for her, the first sound she made was 'uhhhhh!' (think slow but loud exclamation) and then she asked 'are you melissa or melanie?' hhahaha, then she said the last time she saw me was when i was this tall (think 60cm) ahahha. i like aunty bertha :D

so anyway, i offered to treat mummy to a movie later tonight (the other 2 monkies will have to pay for their own tickets because they have ang-paos hhehehe i love my monkie sisters) because I am 'in demand by a doctor'. i hope we get to watch 'notes on a scandal' and not get persuaded by marilyn ho and end up facing the oversized sillicon butt of eddie murphy for 2 whole hours.

hahahaha. okay, shut up Melanie Ho. it's been a happy monday, and 'chu er' of the cheenese new year.
and oh, it's been a whole day of eating yet again. no complaints. i love food.
and i love dee.

2007-02-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

So, it's past 5 in the afternoon and the steamboat's been warming up since 4.30. haha, Aunty Magaret and Uncle Samuel are lateeeeeeeee. Maybe we should steam-boat them instead. haha! nah.

il-divo's playing full blast downstairs because mummy loves them. she says's they're handsome. I will not disagree. haha.

I'm hungry! we had breako at ECP this morning and guess what. after breako, we visited our old estate in Bedok Ria.

*grinssssss.

soooo exciting i tell you. it's like reliving my childhood for just a moment.

okay!! THEY'RE HERE!! STEAMBOAT TIMEEEEEEEEEEE

:D

2007-02-19T09:21:00.000+08:00

Lucky?

:)

Yeah, lucky.

2007-02-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

truth is, I love to see you happy. I wish I could wear you proudly like a scout putting on his very first well-earned badge. I wish I could, without fearing the lashing of words from so many people who matter.

I'm proud of you. I don't have to show you off, but I'm proud of you. There are so many things I've said that you probably consider said just for the sake of saying them. But really, I wouldn't have stuck with you throughout all these while if none of them were true.

sigh. there, I've finally said what I've wanted to say for a long time. and now I feel so bare. I'm nekkid! hahaha..

You know something? I know I can't make you feel perfect. I know I can't make you feel lucky, feel blessed, or feel even close to complete. Haha, kinda tears me apart to say all this. But I just want you to know that I've really been trying my best. I know I've screwed up more than once. And there's no excuse.

No one else comes close.
I just hope you'll grow to believe me all over again.

2007-02-08T01:37:00.000+08:00

On hindsight, this 'holiday' has been one hell of a journey.
I've laughed, I've cried, I've grieved, I've made decisions, I've made mistakes.

And look, it's only February.

2007, you're gonna be a year I'll never forget.

Am I scared? Yeah, to death. I'm always scared. Of this, of that, of everything.

Grow up lah you 19-year-old shit head.
Grow up Melanie Ho.

hahaha. I can't believe I just called myself a shit-head. Okay, 2am is a good time to sleep.

ci-cher, ci-cher!
night night.

2007-02-05T00:43:00.000+08:00

I MISS MY SEC 2s, very very the very very much.

2007-01-29T11:41:00.000+08:00

ter bloi hai chun per...laew ter gor ting chun bai

2007-01-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

"I'm waiting for my dad to come back. Feb 15."

I'm waiting for my dad to come back too. Papa! It isn't the same without you here. It really isn't. I don't come down in the morning seeing you have your breakfast in the most casual of ways, smiling and grinning to me as I rush down, asking "Do I have time to eat? Do I have time to eat???"

I don't think about my results. I don't like to worry about it. I just want to think about it when it comes. Perhaps the day before, perhaps the day itself. What's the point when the right time to have been thinking hard about it was when I was actually preparing for it, drilling myself for the very examination.

But as I typed the reply to you, I realised how scared I am to disappoint you. I've never had high hopes of myself Papa, it's always been you. It's always been you who believed when I didn't, who pushed me (hard) when I said I couldn't go on. When I tell you I'm tired, you laugh like I'm a first-grader crying over a broken pencil. You laugh to make me feel like this is nothing- like there's nothing I cannot overcome.

Tell me now how can I get used to you being away, when you were the one who held me down, who taught me how to hold my chopsticks, how to keep my knee down at the table, how to go through life with that impish grin, how to say 'I can' when every part of me has given up.

Mummy needs an anchor.
Mummy won't be able to keep me up for a very long time.

Papa, it's not the same, it's really not the same.
I miss you.

2007-01-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

I didn't want to look at things this way, because I didn't have to. But when I did, I realised that trying hard has robbed me of a previlege I want so badly now, for so many reasons. Maybe you just have to throw this in my face, like mud on a footballer's cheeks when he's crushed. Maybe you just have to drill me and not give me the easy way out. Like this is your mighty idea of a cacoon. Your idea of fruitful entrapment. Maybe you, maybe you, maybe you. Mr. G, maybe you.

2007-01-25T18:03:00.000+08:00

I haven't quite figured what my muse is. To doodle, to snap, to write, to type.

An angry heart? A broken heart. A breaking heart. A hungry stomach? No scratch that. A hungry heart. A broken spirit. And the irony, an empty mind.

It'll probably never be a person. How can someone allow herself to rely on fellow flesh and blood for a train of beautiful incongruency? Of bitterness and rosemary.Of crystal subtlety. Of infernal passion.

But a heart, a heart and its voracious emotions; the lack thereof.

It should lie in a heart. Or a heart in a heart, worn beneath the chest, just as it ravels beneath its constant masquerade.

2007-01-25T17:54:00.000+08:00

The entire sum of existence is the magic of being needed by just one other person.

really?

2007-01-18T08:12:00.000+08:00

Division will always lead to descrimination. That's just the way it is, isn't it? Tolerance has its limit because benevolence has a measurable elasticity. At its weakest, it snaps. No matter how leaders try to build up cohesion or plaster it with policies and the ideals, there will always be deep-rooted racism beneath contrasting physical identities, beneath contrasting tongues.

You must have inked us with a reason. And the reason must have had nothing to do with this.

This one, all you monkies have to watch.

'In LA, no one touches you. We're always behind metal and glass. Think we crash into each other just to feel something.'

2007-01-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

I don't like to mope.
But I feel like shit.

So what do I do when I know I have to protect you, and this makes you hate me.

I can't afford to feel any more alone here.

on a side note, thank you my sec2s, for making me smile to myself for the slightest reasons.

2007-01-15T22:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HID.

big big hug!

2007-01-15T22:07:00.000+08:00

'children don't have to earn our respect;
they don't have to qualify;
they don't have to impress us.
they have it just because they have it.'

- motion picture 'Turn Your Heart Toward Home'.

2007-01-10T00:06:00.000+08:00

2007-01-09T02:57:00.000+08:00

wow. I'm 19. (yes okay, I'm not 16, I admit I admit!)

so while others may prefer spending their birthdays at some expensive restaurant, with a huge cake shared with a big party of friends followed by a night of clubbing and booze, I just want to (simply) spend quality time with the people I love, the people who matter, the people I treasure.

annnnndddd, I'm trigger-ba-drigger happy I did. thank you sooooo much to the people who made it happen.

:D

I love The Daily Scoop. I love how everyone is happy there and how we don't have to mess with politics and what not. thank you linglongbell for this!

I love my family, and I love the family time I've been having. But I miss you Marilyn Ho. I wish you didn't have to go to school. (hahahaha.)

I love the 8. I am so damn lucky to have you all you know that? Thank you so much for giving me what I wished for, hahaha. ok you know I know. Thank you all so much for sticking with me through the past 6 years. I love you Ling (because you simply know me and still love me!), I love you Geetha (and i miss you so much), I love you Jingle (though there's so much unspoken friction sometimes), I love you Siti (because you are a gem, you are really), I love you JoJo (thank you so much for being the one who kept us all together, you really have, and thank you for always listening), I love you Yus (and I am really here if you need me), I love you Ziyang (man, I miss those class room days!)

I love you Raghagoo, for believing that we can be great-grand friends, and for always being here!

I love you Yana, for promising me a friendship I want to keep for a long long time.

I love you Candace & Pei Xian, for putting up with my moments, with my nonsense and basically, with me. I treasure you both a whole damn lot.

And to everyone who gave me your well-wishes, thank you, thank you, and thank you some more. hehehe. I think I shall/have personally said my thank yous if I haven't here.

well hello big world, this is Melanie at 19.

brace yourselves!!!!

muahahahhaha.

2007-01-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

monday. 8th Jan!

saturday. Dinner at Live 60's Seafood with Uncle Samuel's family!

saturday. Tea at Liquid Cafe!
saturday. Korean B'day Lunch!

thursday. RAMEN RAMEN!

2007-01-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, sarang.

2007-01-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

ice cream really makes me hair-pee :D
that makes working with ice-cream a hair-pee job.
so, my life now seems to be ripped out from a power-puff girls episode. yes, you get the idea: flowers, rainbows and butterflies.

okay....here goes, verbal diarrhea (sp?!)

I really want to leave Singapore, I really want to I really want to I really want to. Of course I'll miss you guys. But looking at things, how we're all busy most of the time, working/studying and barely get to talk except on MSN (more often than not), what difference would going away make? Yes, I know, a world of difference for the very fact that then, I can't be around whenever.

So anyway, I won't be going away because I can't. Our finances cannot support me so I'm gonna be a good girl and stay here.

I'm happy anyhow, it's just one more road not taken, and another pursued :D
Oh, but I think I know what I want to do after Uni (if I get into NUS)
so...till then, MERRY 2007 MONKIES!

Ling, Siti, JoJo, Geetha, Yus, Ziyang and Jingle: I'm sorry for not being the best friend but I do care a lot for you guys, and you guys mean a lot la :)

on a side note, I loved my saturday, despite the (gahhhh!!!) horrible fluuuu.

2007-01-04T10:59:00.000+08:00

firsts.

the day before teachers' day
sep1
beuno
prata
raising helen
blizzard
pure choc
idol3
77
sheares
melly
maroon 5's

2007-01-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

2007-01-03T02:02:00.000+08:00

hehehe

muahahahha

hahahhaha !

for the first time in t-w-e-l-v-e lonnngggg dreary yearsssssss I DON'T HAVE TO WAKE UP FOR MY 'FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL'!

yayyyyy!!! hair-pee dance, hair-pee dance!

you know uh,I face ice-cream so much that I even dreamt of myself scooping ice cream, yes, with my scoop. (we share an intimate relationship)

aiyo..&& I'm so blur. nevermind Melanie, fighting!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
:D

2006-12-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

(okay I'm not saying this just because she said it first.)

but...

I LOVE WORKING WITH LINGLONGBELL!

:D

happy new year monkies! (monkeys? whatever. hahaha)

2006-12-31T00:31:00.000+08:00

it matters. it matters like hell.

2006-12-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

this one, I like very much.

2006-12-25T12:51:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!
So papa left for Sydney in the wee hours of the Christmas morning, and mummy and the rest of us will be heading to town soon. At night, I'll be meeting the ting tongs for Ameen Party.

Okay, now, I need to pee!

God Bless you all!

2006-12-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

2006-12-23T00:10:00.000+08:00

as he sleeps is he dreaming?
of his home, so far away
oh I can see traces of heaven
shining on his holy face
(:

You're the reason for Christmas.

2006-12-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

I'll do it.

2006-12-14T14:51:00.001+08:00

When your fingers pace left and right above the keyboard, you know you want to say something but you don't quite know how or you don't quite know what. Today I want to talk about love but it's like giving a ridiculous epilogue to a book so condensed, so rich in unfathomable prose. It's selfish isn't it. This thing we call love. When you want someone to be with you because he/she gives you that overrated warm fuzzy feeling. When you want to be surprised by the person you love. When you want to feel appreciated. When you call and expect him/her to be around when you need him/her. When you like the embrace because it makes you feel like nothing else matters. Self-love maybe, self-love.

Yes, love is patient, kind, and all that jazz.

But maybe love is about wanting to protect someone. Even if it means watching yourself fall to pieces, even if it means you never make it back.

Should I?

Because working for a living sounds so enticingly alien, because having common blood around beats anything now, because starting anew isn't like a peanut-butter-and-jelly sandwich- it goes beyond the trivialities and because I don't want to be selfish anymore.

questions about questions about thoughts on thoughts.
your extended joke on a very broken metaphor.

When the greatest thing to learn in life is the greatest fall of a Man, you pick up a broken record and put it on replay.

There was no ellipsis in my letter when I didn't say I love you.

2006-12-14T01:47:00.000+08:00

You know God, it's really not funny anymore.

2006-12-13T02:48:00.000+08:00

dear left gum on the far-end,

I don't know why you insist on upsetting me. maybe you think this is very funny. you know, because of you, I need to rush (& run) to the dentist tomorrow, just so I catch him when he (just) opens, and hopefully, get an impromptu appointment in the wee hours of the morning. before all the patients who've appointments arrive. you have been at this since last week. it is not funny anymore! Okay, I promise I will not sleep at 5am anymore (when I'm at camp) and I will not eat all the wrong things that you don't like. Can you pleaaaaseeee get back to normal now? you know I can't close my mouth properly & this is getting irritating! like ellen's dancing. hahahha

and uh.
i love you gum.

:D

love,
melanie ho.

2006-12-12T13:32:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to unwind this long long dressing.
But I have so much to say, so much to unload, so much to let out.

2006-12-12T12:13:00.000+08:00

our night out!
we love fries! hahaha, okay okay, I do.
she already looks tipsy.

okay this is the only stunned-signature-look of yours I'm posting. hahaha

ze band! niceeee stuff. but too bad they couldn't play my requestS. hahaha. booo!

home sweet home ah! the pretty-high Melissa Ho in the backseat.hahaha

okay, so we'll be meeeting you in like, less than 2 hrs..forrr grocery shopping & drivvvinggg & vcdss & idiot-box time! & ellen degeneres (whtever the sp.) NOT & whipping up dinner! yayyyy!! burn your house burn your house! muahaha.

2006-12-12T02:04:00.001+08:00

I love you all too much.
But I don't know how to say 'don't go' like it would be the only magic words He'd grant me.

2006-12-03T17:04:00.000+08:00

feelings are like fire.
a good servant, but a bad master.

2006-12-01T10:58:00.000+08:00

hello people

haha, i'm in taiwan right now, uhuh yes, taiwan! NI MEN HAO :D

im in front of a shop called hsin tung yang, at the airport. the family and i will be leaving for sg in 2 hrs.

hmmmmm..there's been loads on my mind, and well, let's just say, it's gonna be a long year-end & new year.
*shrugs
oh well. wait for my call, and uh, see you all soon. gotta go, impatient taiwan man behind me hahaha.

zai jian le!

2006-11-24T02:08:00.000+08:00

smiling just to see, the smile upon your face.

2006-11-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

22 Nov: LIBERATION DAY AH!!!
this girl uh...........eats like nobody's (and i mean NOBODEH'S) business but then! figure like WOW a small hourglass.what to do, ao3 girls are just..hahahha..you know..too..aiyah nvm shy uh.

'W' stands for WHAT THE VIVO!!!!! got it? got it?

hello guys.

good ol' monster mate. and...the loser aura. hahahahaha geri you know I still love you. it's okay to be a loser.

I've come to love your company peopleeee, gah! And now we have to say bye bye.

oh well. nevermind.

we have.....PROM, POST-PROM PARTY, POST-PROM SLEEPOVER anddddddd hopefully CRUISE!!! yayyyyy

2006-11-23T12:44:00.000+08:00

Post-As dinnneeerr with the class was fun. FUN. I don't know why, but it was FUN. like, you know, fun. hahahahhaha, okay so erm, get used to my vocabulary (or, close to the lack of it)

Vivocity (with slang) is niceeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I LIKE. I want to go again & again & again. very good, very good, finally a replacement for Town and Holland Village. Haha, I couldn't stop going around asking people if this is their first time in vivo, and then when they say yes, WHAT THE VIVO! oh, and if you wear really smooth soles, you can slide around the place. && you can swim across to sentosa. No no, malaysia. no no sentosa.

HELLO. we are supposed to be going out. GET UP ALREADY! puh!what the vivo.

I am hungggggry i need to eat people.

2006-11-21T20:21:00.000+08:00

My Last Mugging Session With the Banana at the Durian!

she had constipation.....not.

what the vivo! she couldn't stop calling Ice Mountain, Mountain Dew.

yay people yay!

2006-11-20T17:09:00.000+08:00

2006-11-20T12:21:00.000+08:00

gggaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Ya No Es Igual.

This invisible boulder is so huge it may never come down. & I add on to my store of pent-up pickles.

2006-11-16T01:57:00.000+08:00

it's 2 a.m

I realised that I don't write here anymore. I don't write about how I feel about things that are going on in my life or about (haha) the world. Well, perhaps sometimes I do, but in any case, I'm just like the anti-thesis of my black & white blog- I don't say anything explicitly. I don't know why it's so hard for me to untwine this wound up dressing I've unknowingly layered myself with. I cannot go bare. Or perhaps, like Cordelia, I cannot heave my heart into my mouth. It's okay, right?

Shakespeare once wrote, that when we are born we cry, that we are come to this great stage of fools. If all the world's a stage, I must be the greatest fool, for fooling myself about this, and that, and that.

You know it takes a whole lot of nothing to smile and laugh.

But in my case, it takes a whole lot of something to mean it.

Certainty.

Good morning Happiness, you don't seem so foreign, you don't.

2006-11-14T17:14:00.000+08:00

at this very moment...

I'm having a reaaally bad craving.

muahahaha! I know you wanna know what for? So..see

this! Still dont get it?

what about this! No?

okay la..you should get the idea now. yes yes yes!

it's a donut! but!!!! this, is NO ordinary donut okay. it's filled with, ehem ehem, WHIPPED CREAM. gahhhhhh! I WANT!!!!!

but too bad, only found in Tokio. mahahah!

2006-11-14T11:49:00.000+08:00

I've

econs in the afternoon.

Melanie Ho just get through with this properly, for once!

(at present count, there are like 82748256078136782935684817274 butterflies squashed and crammed up in my tummy. oh boy.)

oh I went to check out Shan Wee's prom date contestants! there's a girl from NJ whom i've never seen before in my whole life. hahaha!so...if she wins, he'll be at our prom! waha!vote for her vote for her!

2006-11-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

2006-11-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAH!

2006-11-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

2006-11-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

sei jai tum mai?

2006-11-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

"as long as you've tried your best."

(:

2006-11-03T11:20:00.000+08:00

Dubai is beautiful, eh?

Melissa Ho's arrival (in
the midst of my exam)
Winter in Taiwan
Miss Maths Ling's wedding cocktail
Prom
Post-prom
Party
Quality time
with friends
Part-time Job
Beach with Melissa Ho who will (yay!) drive us there.
HAHA
Shopping with Melissa Ho
Indon Movie
Marathon
Korean Drama
Marathon
More quality
time with friends
The O.C Marathon
Camp at Malaysia
Photo-taking outings with Jng
Erm,
driving lessons?
Present
Shopping!
Christmas!!
2007 Job Application
Movies, shoppping, fooooooood
More more
quality time with friends
& of course ddddddd
finally, New
Year!

2006-11-01T01:52:00.000+08:00

okay, I know I've said my good-nights, and I should be hitting the sack already. BUT I need to say this:

I am happy.
I am loved.
I am grateful.
I am ready.

hahaha, to everyone who is taking (or about to take) any major examination now, ERRRR-RAH! (Fischer style! hahaha, okay you have to watch The Guardian to get this.)

2006-10-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

you guys have to watch this movie.

2006-10-27T00:25:00.000+08:00

"Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words."

2006-10-27T00:02:00.000+08:00

2006-10-26T18:39:00.000+08:00

the ZOO trip!
elliot so cute!
cuteeeee otters!!

POLAR BEAR!!!!

all together now, CAH ..PU ...CHIN!

aussie outback!
yellow white yellow! we outlasted okay!

2006-10-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

1 Rochester.So bready!
talk about like-father-like-daughter!

2006-10-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

A busy busy birthday for Mummy
with errands to run in the day, church friends over at night (&& tons of satayyyyy)

just some quick pictures for you, Melissssaa
ps: Marilyn was glued to mummy's laptop, thus, her absence in the snapshots, haha.
pps: oh, pardon the droooopy eyes, I slept at 5am the night before, haha (:
she's wearing my present, but with the wrong shirt! haha, it isn't prominent here.
I have the bottom half of your face.

Pei Ru & Candace (awww pei ru is so sporting when it comes to taking pics! must be peixian's influence haha..) && TINTIN IN VIETNAM! so cute la. hahaha

2006-10-21T02:55:00.000+08:00

why can't you tell me where?

please don't go.

because I don't want to get used to it.

2006-10-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

Happy Happy Birthday Mummy!

i remember how I'd cry when I was younger, thinking about how you and papa would look when you guys grow older, thinking about how weak you guys would be.

oh well.

hahaha, one more year has passed. and while you're at it, you're graceful just the way you are

(:

2006-10-20T02:16:00.000+08:00

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