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 TonFlyingHigh!7:11 PM *** Wednesday, March 28, 2007 I'm a day late (since it's today and not yesterday anymore) but.. Happy 25th Papa & Mummy! (: I wanted to eat surprising! coconut ice cream but it's rock-hard (so hard it could kill someone, I promise) so....I gave up. And what was only supposed to be just mummy's butter cake, is now marmalade pantry cupcake #2, peanut butter! *grins. dang dang is definitely very happy and round. Tomorrow (I mean, today) I shall have chocolate, and the next day, the mysterious flavour. Muahahaha. I shared lemon with mummy yesterday (I mean, the day before yesterday) She said is was too sweet. But I liked it! It was like having lemon sherbet on cupcake without the chillyness. Too bad, rainbow cupcake got eaten up by monster marilyn before I got home. Maybe that was coconut. I dunno? Maybe tomorrow I will run to bbdc.....NOT. heh heh. Mummy flies off tomorrow. Papa will have good ol' company then :) Healthier food too, I BET. hahahaha. Mummy's a part-time health freak. You guys should know, just by the pills I down everyday. But she eats a lot of chips, which makes her a good mummy too. hahahahha. Boss: "So who's going to be in charge of the house when she's there?" Me: "Me lah!" Terence (from afar): "oh no!..chaos." excuse me, excuse me! TonFlyingHigh!1:39 AM *** Tuesday, March 27, 2007
 TonFlyingHigh!1:07 PM *** Sunday, March 25, 2007
 'think we crash just to feel something.' I think I shouldn't set days aside just to spend time at home because things just go wrong. I guess some things should just be left unsaid. Apart from that, I've come to terms with how no one can love three people equally. I've always been the one who's out and about, let it stay like that; how I'm more out of your way than in it. Guess over the years it's grown on me. And with regards to your little baby girl, it's not like I don't try to help out. I do. But screw recognition. I don't need it from you anymore. Have you forgotten that I'm your girl too? Maybe it's my fault that I can't share much. I can't, you'll just...flip. Not angry, just pretty numb. That aside, I wonder how Melissa Ho is doing. Partying, last I heard. Haha, that monkie. The weeks past so quickly don't you think? But somehow, I'm happy like that. Work and play. Dee and friends. Church and Marilyn. Rajjy, please be okay. You know people, there are seven faces of sorrow. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. anyways, I hope to do something for him on his birthday :) it's never easy to lose someone you love. but I'm sure he loves you very much and wants you to happy. just like po po does, for mummy. You were always there when I needed you. I hope to be here for you now. Ice cream works for me, does it for you too? hehe TonFlyingHigh!8:47 PM *** okayyyyyyy. scratch the ONE YEAR WITHOUT ICE CREAM post. abort plan! abort plan! hahaha, no wonder you said it's not worth it. not worth one year of painful painful sacrifice. hahaha.. you know, home is when you're here. (: TonFlyingHigh!12:53 AM *** Sunday, March 18, 2007 okay, hello 18 March 2007 no ice cream till 19 March 2008 by the looks of it, I'm still doing well. hey, it's been more than 12 hours since. eh...melanie fighting! haha. TonFlyingHigh!6:54 PM *** Saturday, March 17, 2007
 Anyone who says people can't put him down is a freaking liar. What, like you have every bit of individuality in you able to hold you up all the time? Everyone has an avenue. Some eat, some drink, some do drugs, some cut themselves. Morbid mutilation, yada yada. Mine just happens to be people. Or so I just realised. Everyone has at least someone who's his avenue. It's just a matter of whether he's yours, when you're his. TonFlyingHigh!1:27 AM *** Friday, March 16, 2007 and so I just completed my flash-back episode of Prison. The dvd called the epi 'Brother's Keeper'. You know like how every 'Friends' episode has a name also known as 'the one where...chandler gets fatter' (for example la, haha) so I learnt from Prison today that the crane represents familial obligation. 'I figured it's your way of telling me that you're checking in on me.' You know, you're right beside me sleepinggggg (thank God you are, at this hour). But I can't help but say that I want to look out for you as long as I can, and at times I'm gonna get on your nerves for doing so. but you gotta know that I love you. I love you a lot. But you know, I feel like a hypocrite telling you not to this and that, to do this and that, when I'm breaking all the ground rules, breaking all their hearts. sigh. scratch that. anyways I know I know, I am lagging behind. haha, so I didn't even bother to catch the debut of season 2 because yours truly is still at disc 3 of 4, courtesy of siti (bang bang) I am hungry. see this is what happens when I stay up. but then again, I'm almost always hungry, with the exception of post-feasting. I had my first driving lesson today! fun. round and round and round, clock wise, anti-clockwise, inner lane, outer lane, round and round, but fun. hahaha. I even asked mr instructor (oh I just realised I didn't ask for his name! wah lau) 'you not giddy ah?' hehehe, but i'm hitting the roads come wednesday! hope I don't do anything stupid, like mistake the accelerator for the brake pedal (again) haha this post must sound like a mad emotional helter skelter. I carry your heart. had this random thought today: you know the term 'vanilla sky'? is that a metaphor for things appearing to be the way they are the exact opposite of? since vanilla beans, the stuff that give you the very flavour, are afterall, really black. TonFlyingHigh!2:44 AM *** Monday, March 12, 2007 grateful. TonFlyingHigh!12:41 AM *** Wednesday, March 07, 2007
 I seem to be doing so many accidental little little things that annoy you, that it annoys me. Just to let you know dee, this girl over here will be learning. see that 'L' plate up there? ya, imagine me wearing it. like a car. oh like that car. IMAGINE IT, IMAGINE IT! oh well. I just hope I'm still loved all the same despite my imperfections. && I HAVE A HUGE CRAVING FOR KOREAN FOOD (again) grrrrrr. making cones means having to clear up evidence of dead cones killed by, er, me. hahahaha, I think I ate 5 today. Cedele sandwiches are nice. At least the one Melissa shared with me today. They actually put jam (disgused as cranberry sauce. sneaky, sneaky!) with chicken and it actually worked. A round of applause for Cedele everybodeh. Oh and ling, Pellvyn (that's how you spell his name) wears a shirt because he is part of management. Not because he is welcoming the millionth customer coming in possibly anytime this week. (okay fine, so I said it) hahahaha, I still think we should have that millionth customer thing. Imagine. Imagine. okay stop imagining. now imagine me, staring at the comp for the past 30 minutes. Wait, almost 3 quarters of an hour (hahaha, dee this is me trying to sound like you, when talking about US cents) Yep, I was staring, not knowing what to say. But yet trying to say a lot and not sound like a whiny (quote and unquote) Melanie Ho. Haha, and I (just) almost told you guys that I feel like peeing but deleted that because it was a bit unnecessary. Okay, so I should really go because I have to visit the rest room. TonFlyingHigh!6:34 PM *** Chelsea has made friends, or so I just realised. Unlike us she doesn't have to use a handphone to text messages or to call or to send pictures of herself over. She barks, and her friends bark back. Last night when I entered the kitchen I found her all curled up, and when I opened the fridge door, I expected her to stir a little but she didn't. Still as a log. Haha, because she's so old, I panic. Droopy eyes- just sleepy eyes. I really should get going for my daily scoop. Can't stop sneezing. I hope I don't sneeze into any ice cream today. Haha. 'Biggest mistake at the work place' number 83761892468932489. I already committed the 'biggest mistake at the work place' numbers 98712438971489 and 8734874892 and 192873892749834. Hahaha, you think mental patients are really happy in their own little world (of exciting moments? ok melanie stop.) Come to think of it, I think some are la. But then again, there are the bitter bitter cynical ones who go on and on about war and dictorship and honour and glory and all that jazz (crap). It's funny when you hear them rant and rave about things that technically don't seem to matter anymore, but then that cracking-up turns to pity, sympathy. You know what I mean. It's always different when it's got to do with someone you love. You don't laugh. Good morning world. How about some rain for today? Rain is good. We could do with some sympathetic background. TonFlyingHigh!10:32 AM *** |
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